you know that it's a fool/who plays it cool/by making his world a little colder
Sunday, July 22, 2007
alienated
I haven't made a post (at least not a real post) here in a couple months, and that is not because I haven't had thoughts, but because I've stopped myself from sharing them. I type and then I think... what is the point of being real? I don't think people want reality from me.
I do. Because I care about you. I wanted to give you a hug tonight, but didn't get a chance to. You looked like you could have used a few. I will be praying for you.
It certainly is tough to know how to express oneself to the worldwide public.
I think that your friends want to share in your reality, but the worldwide public may not be the right audience.
I have personally been recalibrating my expectations of internet expression. It sure does not seem that it works as an alternative to communication in a physically present situation.
You know, I recently found myself wanting to share some things that I didn't want to share with everyone in the world, including my family. So I started a second blog that people have to ask to read. So I now have one where I share whatever and one where I share the deep stuff that I've really never shared before.
Quand l'ombre sur l'appui de ma fenetre/Devient le soliel dansant par le fenetre/Et j'ai aussi danse dans cette rue/Et j'ai epraive la brosse leger de la pluie/Mon couer est blanc, il promene seul/Par un plage vif et cool/Avec les vagues deferler sur les roches/Et ma chucotent, "Les temps est allee."/Mes reflexions ruee sur la sable d'ombre/Dans les dessins comme les ailes de la colombe
7 comments:
That's sad Ciara and I would like to tell you, not true. I hope you get the courage to post and be yourself...
I DO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I do. Because I care about you. I wanted to give you a hug tonight, but didn't get a chance to. You looked like you could have used a few. I will be praying for you.
I do.
But then again, I think I'm cheating, since I still get reality.
:)
It certainly is tough to know how to express oneself to the worldwide public.
I think that your friends want to share in your reality, but the worldwide public may not be the right audience.
I have personally been recalibrating my expectations of internet expression. It sure does not seem that it works as an alternative to communication in a physically present situation.
You know, I recently found myself wanting to share some things that I didn't want to share with everyone in the world, including my family. So I started a second blog that people have to ask to read. So I now have one where I share whatever and one where I share the deep stuff that I've really never shared before.
Angie, thanks for the prayers. That means a lot to me. And that is a good idea about the seperate blog, I might try that, too.
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