audioangel2 (12:53:31 AM): did you ever read brave new world?
ashbyduck (12:53:42 AM): no
audioangel2 (12:53:45 AM): okay
audioangel2 (12:54:11 AM): well, in that book, there is a character named helmoltz, and he is a genius but he is trapped in a utopian society that uses various forms of mind control
audioangel2 (12:54:24 AM): and you look at him and think, wow, he has all the potential to start a revolution
audioangel2 (12:54:42 AM): and at various points throughout the book he seems like he is really getting it. and things are going to change
audioangel2 (12:55:03 AM): and then at the end, he disappoints you and accomplishes nothing and his life does not change.
audioangel2 (12:55:15 AM): he is basically one of my favorite literary characters ever.
ashbyduck (12:55:29 AM): wow
audioangel2 (12:55:36 AM): he is basically too lazy to live up to his potential
ashbyduck (12:55:43 AM): wow
audioangel2 (12:55:44 AM): and would rather exist in misery than fight for freedom
audioangel2 (12:55:55 AM): he reminds me so much of the world.
audioangel2 (12:55:56 AM): anyway
audioangel2 (12:56:13 AM): i really want a character like that, because i think it is such a good description of what people are like
audioangel2 (12:56:20 AM): it's more true to life than movie heroes
ashbyduck (12:56:20 AM): yeah, huh
ashbyduck (12:56:24 AM): hey i have myspace comments
ashbyduck (12:56:25 AM): or something
ashbyduck (12:56:32 AM): yes. i want to read this book now.
audioangel2 (12:56:41 AM): it is really really really good.
audioangel2 (12:57:40 AM): so, i was brainstorming ways to change that character idea or adapt it
audioangel2 (12:57:50 AM): so that i'm not ripping off huxley
audioangel2 (12:57:59 AM): at least not as blatantly
audioangel2 (12:58:14 AM): what i want to do is create a character that is trying to find love
audioangel2 (12:58:34 AM): and seems close to finding it, but in the end,
ashbyduck (12:58:50 AM): bails cause it's too hard?
audioangel2 (12:58:56 AM): no
audioangel2 (12:59:16 AM): in the end, she can't fall in love
audioangel2 (12:59:51 AM): and rather than finding hope, she loses it
audioangel2 (1:00:14 AM): i think love changes people
audioangel2 (1:00:20 AM): but only if they are ready to be changed
audioangel2 (1:00:26 AM): i think love gives life meaning
audioangel2 (1:00:29 AM): so if you can't love
audioangel2 (1:00:34 AM): then does your life have no meaning?
do you give up? do you stop? are there people who really are incapable of falling in love, despite all the right circumstances? what about people who put up their OWN roadblocks for love because they are afraid of getting hurt? If you can't break them down, does that mean you stop trying? if you are too afraid to actually feel anything for someone does that mean you're lost? does it end there? do you miss out on lifes greatest adventure because you're screwed up or because you have screwed up in the past? because you have met and lost the right person? because you're numb?
but worst of all, becuase you KNOW what you're missing? doesn't that make it worse?
i don't know the answers to these questions. i'm just playing with the idea. what happens to someone who needs love so badly they can't live without it... but are incapable of feeling it?
just turning it over in my mind.
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wow. so much said in so little space. first whos to say love is lifes 'greatest adventure?' many who experience it dont come out w/that idea in mind. it might be okay for some to write it off for what it is has proven itself to be in their past: a trouble that isnt worth the effort. how can we fault people for making their own value judgments about life and wanting to abstain from love? is that any better than demanding people do it? is it right for a society to force its ideas and conceptions of love on someone? so how can we criticize someone for setting up roadblocks to prevent lifes 'greatest adventure?' it seems a rather obvious safety measure for those who have decided love isnt what ohers tell them it is. this all hinges on the fact that love is not the same thing to all people, which it seems you assume in your blog. where does this idea come from? everyone experinces everything in a slightly (or greatly) different way so why should love be the exception to this rule? it isnt.
to say everyone should love is like saying everyone should waterski. why? because a lot of other people like it? so what? i dont like it so dont make me and dont tell me that it would be the most fulfilling adventure in my life. ill base my decision on whether or not to waterski on my past experiences w/it, and not pressure and other peoples conceptions and perceptions of it.
I dunno, I really can identify with the being afraid and not commting. Being a guy and all, you know we are all afraid of commitment at least that is the stereo type.
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